Butterflies, Bicycles & Building Sites

Today I have decided to put my BRAVE pants on and write my first blog post………

‘Finally’ I hear you saying! ‘We had been wondering where you have been…….. where are her posts, her    musings, her experiences, photos, her adventure updates………… she has posted nothing!

Its true there has been nothing……no quirky photo collages, no hashtags, no personal posts about my adventure so far……… why???

To be honest I have been too scared to share with you (and too exhausted)……. How do I share the reality of day to day life in Phnom Penh, the mundane, the exhaustion, the fatigue, the overwhelming chaos and noise, the emotional rollercoaster, the traffic, the numbness, the stress, the heat, the transition, the waking at 2am, the padlocks, the smell of stinky river, the beauty of the frangipani and mango trees amongst the piles of rubbish…… how do I create all of this into this cool and unique blog that exudes joy, light, love, and the daily adventure of faith without being pretend, fake, and unauthentic……. I didn’t know! Why oh why had I put myself in this position! Who’s idea was this stupid blog?? Oh that’s right it was mine! How annoying!!!

A blog sounded so cool and awesome in Australia, how romantic and creative, a pretty space to embrace my passion for writing, a way to share my journey and adventure with others……I was all set and ready to blog… I had the catchy (slightly 1970’s) blog site https://butterflyjoy.com.au …….. the pretty theme and images……. I had shared the link with all my nearest and dearest……. all that was left to do was write…….. easy…….. not easy, actually really really really hard…… anytime I thought about what to write in the blog I would get butterflies in my stomach, and my brain would literally start to hurt………. So being the procrastinating, avoider that I can be sometimes I threw the blog in the too hard basket and pushed it from my mind…….

It was only this morning when I realised I have been here for 1 month and no updates, no posts and no sharing that I needed to start, to face my fear, put my brave on and blog!

The daily ‘adventure’ in Cambodia has been a combination of ………. Collisions (both literal and figuratively) of cultures, views, values and vehicles.  Contrasts of beauty and ugliness, laughter and tears,  wealth and poverty,  calmness and chaos, construction and demolition. Complexities the more I know, the less I understand, the more I read and talk to others the less I can comprehend. The history of this country, the culture, the people such contradictions and confusion…………… I have also been navigating my internal collisions, contrasts and complexities ……. doubts & destiny,  fear & faith, joy & pain, safe & scared, laughter & tears, overwhelmed & okay, exhaustion & energy, brave & being a big baby, rest & insomnia, alone & supported, grace & frustration, confusion & clarity, big picture & basic needs, self care & selfishness, fun & focus, boundaries & availability, leader & learner, competent & incompetent, innovate & stabilise,  structure & spontaneity, control & uncontrollable, calmness & urgency, not enough & sufficient supply,  stillness & motion, settled & stepping forward…….. Oh did I mention it has been quite warm………hot, stifling, sweaty weather, even Cambodians have said it is warm (except for the guy in Brown Coffee wearing a fleecy jumper and fingerless gloves, bt that’s another story) 

I guess this has been a long post to say that my ‘adventure of joy’ is not going to be all rainbows, sunshine, lollipops and heartwarming gushy posts……… It is a daily choice to find ‘ joy in the journey’ even if some days I have to look harder than others………. but there is always joy

Oh and I am so thankful for friends and family who are sending me daily joy for the journey!

Sunset joy from Australia





Mask Joy
His Joy

Am looking forward to you joining me on this JOY Journey  

Love Lou x


9 Replies to “Butterflies, Bicycles & Building Sites”

  1. So good to hear from you Lovely Lou. I think that winged blue insect is probably a moth rather than a butterfly but it’s so pretty. Keep making that daily choice for joy!

    1. Thanks Sally! Yes you could be right about the winged blue insect- I should do some more research to clarify! Yes I am determined to keep making that daily choice for joy! Blessings to you! Love Lou x

    1. Thanks so much Kim! I was hoping it would make people smile (also probably have a bit of a laugh at me too!) Thank you so much for your encouragement 🙂 xxx

  2. Hi Lou,you sound so happy,sad,hot ,VERY possative,for what you are doing for the kids.Always thinking of you.love Aunty glen

    1. Aww thank you Aunty Glen!! I got a little teary when I read your message! So much love to you and hopefully will get to see you in Singapore at some stage 😉 xx

  3. Hey lovely Lou! Thanks so much for sharing your amazing journey so far! Wow – sounds like a roller coaster of emotions and experiences and I have loved reading your blog and hearing the realness (I’m sure that is not a word) of your adventure. Take care and be kind to yourself! Jen

  4. Can I just say what a relief to find someone who really knows what theyre talking about on the internet. You positively know easy methods to deliver an issue to light and make it important. More folks must learn this and perceive this side of the story. I cant consider youre no more widespread since you positively have the gift.

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